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I can feel the eyes;

They are watching me;

From within my own mind;

Waiting for the right moment;

Waiting for another sin;

Twisting and turning I move along;

Wondering if anything is worth it anymore;

To breath;

To live;

To sleep;

To even try;

I can hear the demons call my name;

Tormenting me;

Wanting my life;

Wanting my last breath;



07/30/05

Broken Mirror;

Broken Heart;

Torn to shreads without a second thought;

A glimmer of light dead in the night;

The demon he laughs at my actions, my hopes and dreams;

Your the one to blame he utters into my ear;

The pain is your doing, do not blame me;

Give up and I shall set you free;



07/09/05

You came into my life like a dream,



And you are now causing my heart to scream,



Soft words I have never heard spoken,



Affectionate embraces now broken,



Telling me there was more to life than the hell I saw,



My unstable heart my ownly flaw,



Treated me like the person I wanted to be,



But then suddenly it stopped and you took it from me,



Every ounce of shame I was told should not exist,



Returned with just one dark kiss,



In your eyes once held something more,



I now see nothing but a useless whore,



My reflection staring back at me,



The slut you made me out to be,



When something better came along,



Dropped by my doorstep like a common dog,



Your actions cut to my very soul,



With my last ounce of strength I kept my emotions under control,



Days later when I was able to breath,



You said you were sorry and didn't want me to leave,



How can you erase that night,



With more soft words and it wasn't right,



Sadistic and self-destructive,



My self-image forever corrupted,



Why bother with anything any more,



Alone again and hurt to my very core,



02/17/03

Darkness creeping in;



Into the abyss I decend;



Betrayal & Hate my only sin;



Demon clawing from within;



Ripping, tearing, knawing at my soul;



Silent hell its only goal;



Can I set myself free;



Or is this where I chose to be;



Crying, Screaming deep inside;



Is it my own demons I try to hide;



Guilty for feeling this way;



The demons must be my price to pay;



I alone hold the key;



I must embrace the monsters inside of me;



His words shall be my salvation;



His evil my dedication;



Self sacrafice & my blood if he needs;



I am all to egar to bleed;



01/12/03

Sweet lifes blood,



Shadows fall upon the white skin of death,



Unatural eyes peer from within the darkness,



Looking into the soul of your inner child,



The pain with dark thoughts of a savage blood hunt,



To live is death eternal after,



Enclosed forever in a tormented mind,



A whisper is felt upon your soul,



It seems death wants you,



12/18/99,

She walks slowly toward the eternal abyss,



Eyes jolted and tear filled,



Long Silent cries tearing from within,



Forever torment darkened hallow screams,



Wrists begging to be cut,



Eyes filled with hate,



Knife screaming her name,



The claws of death ripping,



Tearing at her heart and flesh,



Crystal darkness fills hollow mind of hate,



Demons breath upon her neck,



Tasting her everlasting guilt,



Blood drips past her finger tips,



Taste sweet flow of life upon the bedroom floor,



Liquid life puddle all around her,



Taste my life,



She cries to the demon within,



Taste my life and embrace me with your all knowing death,



Embrace me with your kisses,



Embrace me for I shall live no longer,



Embrace me oh father of death,



Embrace me for I can stand the pain no longer,



Embrace me now,



She cries upon the blood soaked floor,



Death wraps his dark bony arms around her,



His eyes filled with forgivness and pitty,



He holds her close till she disappears into this dark world,



Engulfed by happiness in his mind,



His eternal bride has come home at last,



2/8/99,